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Erotica is really where my heart is: I want to make people feel good about being human. I like being a human, personally. We are lucky that our sexuality is linked to our mentality. We are playful, intense, and joyful creatures. I get the added bonus of being a female human ;) I can't imagine a better thing to be on this planet.... yup, being a woman is where it's At!

Empress at Heart

Lately I feel like a queen. It's been nice to experience a little bit of adoration, to be cherished a bit. I hear that I'm beautiful now. Everyone deserves to hear that they are beautiful.

It's been wonderful to find the Empress in me, the Woman of Power. It's helping me deal with stress and work as hard as a single mom has to. I went from feeling frumpy and old and disastrous to feeling regal in a short time. 

Spirals begin with small motions on the interior, then whip outwards in ever larger circles.... I'm on my way to loving myself and discovering my true potential. It's quite the journey! 

Oh Deer....

Don't you wish, sometimes, that you could speak up for yourself a bit more? I love being a woman, yes... but I have a hard time seeing the power in it some days. Today I just feel kinda used and trampled on by life. We all have those days. I'm usually happy, but when my heart gets heavy I hit the paper and draw it out.
Some day I'd like to hold the bow and arrow, inflict the wounds. Have something to gut and chop up and eat for dinner, rather than feeling like dinner.
Agency. Without the deer there would be no hunter. I have to remember that little fact. There is power in being a woman.... right?

Athena's Turn to Pose

It's been about two weeks since I last drew.... Ack! Too long! But in my defense I was super busy in all the best ways. In that two weeks I have changed and grown a wee bit... and lo and behold I found my style loosened up for some reason. I used my pencil like a paintbrush for this drawing. What you DON'T see is all the marks I've erased, like I've been using the eraser to push the graphite around on the page, sculpting it. I hit it with some ink for fun. Just for fun. 

I have no idea what I'm doing when I draw: it just kind of takes me over and pushes my hand around.

So this is Pallas Athena, in the flesh. The Parthenos, the Virgin. Ol' Grey-eyes Herself. She normally is more modest than this, I admit, but I seem to put my models at ease, even when I've just pictured them in my head ;) She has cast aside her armour and spear and Aegis and is just enjoying being a beautiful woman in her own beautiful skin. As we all should now and then.

I generally enjoy my own drawings! This one feels a bit rusty to me though, and I immediately see a million things I want to tweak, but Hey, it's my day off and I want to drink a beer and watch Breaking Bad and relax a bit... so that's what I'm going to do! I hope you enjoy it :D

Artemis, Goddess Extraodinaire!

Artemis, Goddess of the Moon and the Hunt, is one of my favourite subjects to explore. I have this fun vision of her as a strong independant young lady, but I also see her as very saucy and flirty. Just because she is a "virgin" doesn't mean she doesn't know how to have a good time.... after all she tends to be surrounded by other beautiful young lady followers. The Greeks had a word or two for homosexuality but I'll bet Artemis kept her business to herself......

I drew this with graphite while listening to MIA's newest album MAYA, so I'm sure she's about to bounce off the page. Her hips seem to be wiggling to MIA's amazing beats. The music I listen to while drawing always effects my final desicions, unconsciously. Then I nailed down the contour with a felt pen and hit her with some acrylic ink and watercolour. And some China ink for her luxurious black locks.

All told this picture took about two and a half hours. It was an awesome way to spend a day off!
I drew this to impress a new friend of mine, who is also an artist.... what me show off? Never! ^.^

From the Moment We are Born we Begin to Die

 

 I'm not sure I ever want to make money from my art, or try to hustle it, or use it so badly as that. Art has another purpose in my life. Since I can't help but draw and paint I'll keep doing it, sure! but art is no Career. That would cheapen it. 

I did this painting for therapy and I'll share it with you. That's proof of my own generosity. I hope maybe it will help another person out there who is feeling ripped up and caged the same way as I do. I don't want to make a dime off my art, I just want to get through each ugly day. Making art affords me a chance to set my mind on something less ugly.

We are trying to start a revolution but have forgotten how to stand up for ourselves. We forget that YES we are born free, live free, and die free. We are all trying to get by. Find love. Find the next meal and a place to sleep safely. We are no more than animals. Look at how we treat animals - is it no wonder we treat each other so poorly? I am an animal. A ferocious one. A feral one. And one that wants to rip out her own heart and eat it.

It may sustain me another day.